Thursday, June 30, 2016

hello?

Is blogging still a thing? I wouldn't know.....it's been a while, hasn't it? This corner of the Internet has been dark for so long I may have forgotten what I'm doing, and I often wonder, why write? Who is reading--and who cares what I have to say? Why have I been putting myself out there for so long?

My second semester of nursing school brought with it paper after paper--millions of words written late at night on mostly-boring subjects, all of which had to be carefully formatted and cited--two things that will eventually suck the soul right out of a girl. Every corrected paper came back the same--top marks for research, presentation, flow, grammar, a bunch of other boring technical stuff (except my in-text citations--I've decided I really hate APA format), and always a comment scribbled large in red, "but I can still hear your voice". So I tried my hardest to write like a robot, presenting only facts stripped of all creative thought. And finally, after enough papers, I feel like they finally stifled my voice.

The last few months I've had ideas fill my brain--it's always overflowing--usually late at night or when I'm out on the trail. I'll jot down a note on my phone or in a little journal I have, but I can't seem to turn them into anything more than just a thought. They sit there like seeds that haven't been watered. I've slowly started sorting through some of those seeds, seeing if I could make sense of them--taking time to water and find a warm spot in the sun so they can grow.

So I've been writing a little here and there--in the quiet hours of the morning, and slowly piecing together thoughts to share again. This space is so outdated and dusty--links are old and broken, there are many questions unanswered, I know. Sometimes I feel like torching the place and starting fresh.....but for now, here's a very brief update from the last 6 months. If you follow along on my instagram (@_sheenarae) then nothing is probably new to you, but for the rest of you, I present to you: 
January-June 2016 (abridged version)

January. 
Started the year in Montana, atop a frosty butte. A new semester. Hospital clinicals--placed some IVs, pulled some staples, changed bandages on an amputated leg. Watched people come out of anesthesia which is super entertaining! Gave an enema on my birthday. Yeah--I turned 33, it wasn't my favorite birthday this year--the winter was long and dark and I was like, "HOW DID I GET SO OLD?!" We climbed a lot at the gym, went south for a weekend to get on some real rock, and took advantage of all the snow--the kids are skiing like champs! 
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February. 
uhhhhh......haha I can't remember much.  I think there was.....snow? My head was buried in those aforementioned papers. I played weekly pond hockey with some awesome mamas in the valley. Traded my running shoes for cross country skis. We headed south again for an icy cold campout (like frost on my sleeping bag in the morning, icy cold). Jonah got glasses. Climbed some more....
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March.
Clinicals at the State Mental Hospital--I learned aLOT.....but I'm glad that's over with--phew! Robby and I took a weekend date down to St. George (more on that later). I teamed up with my friend Mike Butler and he got me lifting weights and eating waaaaayyyyyy more protein. I have been a pretty scrawny runt my whole life and I've been working hard these last few months to get stronger so I could improve my climbing--it's working! (Mike is awesome by the way if you want to reach out to him for your own weight loss/weight gain program, check out his website!) So yeah, lots of weights, more paper writing, tests. Easter was in March so I got dressed and did my hair--go me!Iwww.inthelittleredhouse.blogspot.comMG_0660
April. 
I took an online Statistics class that I kind of forgot to pay attention to (I need deadlines), so April was all about learning what Statistics is (still don't know), so I could ace my final and be done with it forever (did it!) Jonah turned 11 (how?!) We got some more baby chicks. I stressed out over finals. We ran away to the desert again and ate at my very favorite restaurant in the whole wide world.
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May. 
I finished my first year of nursing school and didn't die! I've been out of school since early May--and it's been the BEST! I started my pre-requisites for nursing school in January 2014 and have not had a lot of time off since. The first summer I had a few classes, and then last summer I had to take my TEAS test to try and get into my program, and then I had to apply, interview, stress stress stress. Then I got IN, and had exactly one million things to do over the summer to get ready for school to start--it never felt like a true vacation with all the deadlines weighing me down. So these last few summer weeks have been nothing short of the best days ever. I've been running, biking, climbing, camping, trying to keep the weeds from taking over my garden (it's impossible), and just hanging out with my family. Robby and I see each other again--our school/work schedules were so conflicting I felt like we would sometimes just wave in passing, but now we even go on real live dates.
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June.
Kids out of school! We've been to the desert, I took the kids to Montana, and we are loving summer evenings outside. Lucy got her cast off from her broken arm in May--she also turned NINE!
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Biking is fun, and so are strangers who forgot to say "look here" when they take the photo. I forgot how much I love zipping through the trees on my bike.
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Backyard jam sessions....
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Early morning climbs with my girls....
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....and now, we are ready for July!
Consider yourself officially updated, and maybe next time I'll dive into those seeds I have growing.

Thanks to the one person (mom) who read through this! Talk soon


*I have so many unanswered comments on here--sorry about that! I really have not been around. I also have over 3000 unread emails.....whoops. While most of them are ads and what not, some of them are from YOU GUYS, and I'm sorry, I've just had to really prioritize my life this past little while and all things internet-involved are pretty far down my list. Thanks for always being here though!
*I get lots of questions about why I'm not posting recipes anymore. We really keep our meals pretty simple and most of what we eat is already on my blog. I just haven't had any extra time to develop anything new, let alone take pictures of it. When in doubt, make eggs!
*I always get such a great response when I post the gear we love and use--I will continue to do that, and I apologize for old links that may not be taking you where you want to go. I will try to get an updated gear list for you soon!
*If I get enough questions on this post, I can do another Q&A post like I've done in the past




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14 comments:

Anonymous said...

Welcome back! So glad all is well. Congratulations on completing your first year of nursing school! Your life seems full, meaningful, and adventurous--never apologize for that.

gram said...

... and your gramma!

lisa said...

You're living! That's what you should be doing ;) It's always nice to read your thoughts and adventures!

Becca said...

It's nice to hear from you, Sheena! I always love getting to read about your adventures, thoughts, and adorable family, but in the meantime, keep living your life! It looks awesome from the outside :)

Laura said...

I've always loved hearing about your adventurers and seeing your gorgeous pictures. Long time follower here! Thanks for not leaving entirely even though life is busy, cause you're an inspiration!

julie said...

Don't ever stop writing . . . your photos are incredible . . . a niece just finished nursing school, talking to her I understand the pressure,- Hang in there, it will all be worth it in the end. Thanks for the update. PS. I read to the end, and I don't even know you! :)

robinkeahnheim.com said...

Hahahaha...love how "Gram" made sure you knew that "Gramma" reads your posts, too. As do I. You, my creative friend, have been B-U-S-Y! (I SO know what you mean by how writing papers sucks the creative write out of you. I experienced the same thing having to write scholarly papers as an English Major --> even though my interest was in Creative Writing, I still had to take Composition courses. You know, in case I ever wanted to teach [not]. It seems as if it is taking f-o-r-e-v-e-r for me to get back into the creative writing swing of things. So, yeah, I get you.)

alaina said...

what a great update or adventures and beautiful photos!!! Keep writing :-)

Michele Garris said...

Hi!
Found your very helpful blog on Lyme disease and was wondering if you are still having issues with Lyme, or has it gone into remission. I am just starting this journey myself and don't know where to start.
Michele

Claire said...

Sheena, I have read your blog for years! I have been inspired by you since I sat at a desk job in college and then as a newly married girl and now with two small children of my own. I just want to say that I always look forward to your messages and recipes, whether they are on Instagram or on your blog. THANK YOU for always staying real and being exactly who you are. It's so refreshing! Your way of life has definitely shaped my little family. Your healthy eating habits, your focus on experiences and being in the outdoors, your motherhood. I don't really follow any blogs anymore, but I am always checking back to yours for previous recipes or new updates. You are super cool and as long as you keep writing, I'll keep reading.

Tamara said...

So glad you are back! I love your blog. Maybe it's one of the only ones I care to read (sometimes the only one.) We're all busy. You're refreshing and I can still hear your voice. Thanks for sharing!

Krystina Olsen said...

Sheena!!!! Like balm to my soul, it's so wonderful to have your words and photos back on my screen!! I completely agree with everything Claire said in her comment. I've been following you around like you're my wise older sister for years now and I completely adore you. I look up to you and the way you raise your kiddos is so inspiring to me. Your life lived out loud (and quietly at the right times) is so inspiring to me and I've learned so much from you. You have shaped me! I love adventuring with my own little growing family (husband and 7 month old) and eat delicious nutritious food and sink into what matters in life because you remind me to! As long as you write, I'll read. Like Claire, I hardly follow any blogs anymore, but I always always come back to yours!!!

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Juliaz24 said...

Wanted to add a quick note that I've been following your blog for years now, and I SO look forward to reading the stories that you share. Just wanted to give that shoutout of appreciation for what you do! (Plus - for every person who leaves a comment, I'm betting there's 10 that don't, but still love what you post <3)